[ He walks into his bunk and he sees her messenger bag, hears the shower running and has to sit down.
He's not ready for this. He's missed her a lot but he hasn't really gotten around to processing his own feelings on things, has managed to throw himself so easily into his work that he hasn't had time to think about how much it hurts to look at the whole equation that includes him and her and his best friend and not know how the numbers are going to fall.
He's not going to lie: he's thought about leaving. He'd told her he wouldn't and he really doesn't know if he could, but he thinks sometimes, in the dead of night that maybe they dove into marriage too soon. Maybe this was long-time coming, it had been Yancy and her first, after all ( Brad doesn't count, Tendo knows he was a rebound ). Maybe, maybe, maybe. ]
Hey.
[ He should be happy. Alison's here and he'd told her to think about things before coming to talk to him, but he'd seen how Yancy had hightailed it out of LOCCENT, can only surmise that his best friend already knows, it's not like Yancy Becket is slow, he would have seen the missing ring on Tendo's finger.
( God. It's me, it's Tendo. I need some advice. What do you do when you can't bring yourself to get angry at a betrayal because your love for two people is just too strong? )
Well, if you're Tendo Choi, you let your face fall into your hands. No, fuck you, he's not crying. And if he is, that's no one's business but his and Alison's because she's in the room with him. ]
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He's not ready for this. He's missed her a lot but he hasn't really gotten around to processing his own feelings on things, has managed to throw himself so easily into his work that he hasn't had time to think about how much it hurts to look at the whole equation that includes him and her and his best friend and not know how the numbers are going to fall.
He's not going to lie: he's thought about leaving. He'd told her he wouldn't and he really doesn't know if he could, but he thinks sometimes, in the dead of night that maybe they dove into marriage too soon. Maybe this was long-time coming, it had been Yancy and her first, after all ( Brad doesn't count, Tendo knows he was a rebound ). Maybe, maybe, maybe. ]
Hey.
[ He should be happy. Alison's here and he'd told her to think about things before coming to talk to him, but he'd seen how Yancy had hightailed it out of LOCCENT, can only surmise that his best friend already knows, it's not like Yancy Becket is slow, he would have seen the missing ring on Tendo's finger.
( God. It's me, it's Tendo. I need some advice. What do you do when you can't bring yourself to get angry at a betrayal because your love for two people is just too strong? )
Well, if you're Tendo Choi, you let your face fall into your hands. No, fuck you, he's not crying. And if he is, that's no one's business but his and Alison's because she's in the room with him. ]